My girls

We spent the morning running, me chasing the girls, growling, hiding and general laughing. As we began to wind down for morning naps I put on slower music. Both girls clamored to dance with me. So I'm holding Kennedy close, watching her face as we spin and dance. The sheer joy of the moment flashes in her eyes as she laughs from her belly. Courtney is dancing in place waiting her turn so I pick her up too. With clarity I can see the trace of blueberry that has stained Kennedy's check and the animal cracker crumb stuck to Courtney's. Kennedy puts her head on my shoulder and reaches across my chest for her sisters hand. Courtney throws her head back in complete trust and enjoyment of the moment. My heart melted and tears rolled down my cheeks as I circled with my little ones.

Will they ever know how much I dearly love them? Will they ever know how much my heart overflows at the mere thought of them? Will they understand that this moment will forever be imprinted on my heart and mind?

Will Janna know how much I enjoy sitting and talking to her every day? How much I love hearing about her adventures at school and her interactions with her friends? How I enjoy seeing her mind open and expand? How I look at her and see so many past moments yet I see her future spread out before her? How I can't imagine a world without her in it? How I treasure our cuddle time and am so thankful she will still climb in my lap and let me rock her.

Do they know my life wasn't complete until each of them entered it?

These last few months have been some of the hardest I've endured - yet the happiness I get from my husband and daughters leaves me overwhelmed and so deeply grateful. I'm truly blessed.